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MAY 18th 2026

1:20PM: Its been a second since I updated this particular blog but I have been busy so I just wanna log some things. I am making new music, most of it sounding like walls of noise. I've been in an akira yamaoka white noiz mood if that makes sense. I love the synth pad dirges. I'm also making a new webcomic, which you will no doubt see on this website soon. The way I uploaded the first page is gonna bother me forever but I realize I cannot be precious with my work, So It shall remain online, as it is. Oh also listening to a lot of girls rituals. Good artist.

MAY 5TH 2026

10:19AM: Gonna go fishing later. My initial instinct on a day off is always to stay in and shun the sunlight until its time to go back to work. This is not good so I am joining my wife fishing. Then, I'm gonna go to the laundromat to dry our clothes because our dryer has been busted for months. We'd get it repaired but we dont want to get hit with an inspection. The laundromat is a great place to draw while sitting in a chair listening to music. Its even better with a nice cold beverage while you sit. See, if I'm too overworked for bigger things like a party or a concert, I can always do something that is basically just sitting. That's a nice thing about fishing. I know I aint catching shit but its nice to sit down.

6:25AM: Nothing I say is real. its confusing, I think. But that's whats so cool about art. You could recreate a murder you commited at your parents old place up in Jolliete and who would know?

12:35AM: Man HROT is fucking hard. Guess I am playing on very hard. but fuck im humping walls for secrets like a cute dog girl begging her owner for a treat. Like please ive been a good girl give me ammunition ruff ruff

MAY 4TH 2026

11:42PM: life feels like such a rip sometimes. I finally want someone to assault me and nobody is interested. Like, what gives? You wont get in trouble. Not if you hide me well enough anyways

11ISH?PM: god, it feels like whenever im outside everybody is just so lame. Like, why are we gossiping about someone from high school we havent talked to in years when like. Okay. Theres a bunch of rainbow six siege meme accounts in my location that im like, 90 percent sure are all connected to the dissapearance of those cheerleaders in 07' I FEEL LIKE THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS THAN WHAT SARAH FROM SENIOR ECON IS UP TO. And even if I am just a crackpot, you gotta admit its more interesting. I'm just asking questions man. I'm just trying to make sense of us standing in this hot topic talking shit still after all these years. Are we washed? Are we fucking lame? Who is doing this to us? Who is swallowing our sisters whole, collapsing under the same pressure that consumes us. Some of us have room to breathe, more of us just. dont.